So my daughter's father wants me to go with them to a Marilyn Manson concert. I think I'd have fun dressing  up but I don't actually want to go to an actual concert. I'm not really into anti God stuff, lol. And tend to stay away from things that border on the demonic. Butt thanks anyway. Plus Mr Manson and I never really got along so in a way it would be weird to go. I hope they have fun. I'll be here prepping for the arrival of the aliens and zombies with the perahelion of planet x.

New light

So I've got all my stones up and together. 

Concrete, fools gold, pyrite, florite, copper, lepidolyte, sulphur, mica, mariposite, obsidian, and dolomite.

I feel as though I'm rested though I don't want to go anywhere or deal with much of anything. Everything important is washed. I sent a letter off to hemi again. IDK if I'll get anything back. Maybe, it would be nice. He's nice to chat with. I'm not really interested in going to a Marilyn Manson concert that much. That just stresses me out.  Ricky stresses me out. I'd go hang out with bill but bill beyond friends is just really not doable. I'm not sure what I'll be doing this year. I'd like to get a trailer and some property and put a swing on it. Make desert and that's it. 

Another update. Rick and Yvette are def off. Yvette's in another relationship and Rick and are are getting married. I still chat with William but I'm not involved with William. I think he's doing better. He was zapped with rf waves at the fire station. Rick is Rick. We haven't really had a chance to talk about things. I'm getting out more. This evening I feel like crap that's because I only have half my food budget. Thanks. It's nice to know that I only matter have as much as anyone else. Jesus. I don't know what else to tell you. I really hate headaches. I could use some prune juice. I hope I'll feel better in the morning. I've been doing a lot better. Mostly cause I've been eating more veggita less. Although for now I'm out. Nope come to think of it I've got beets. They're not the good kind which are pickled. I guess they'll do. I have to remember to get the pickled beets next time they're so much better. Anyway lol, things could be better things could be worse. Things are ok for now. Right now I have to get get my water that I forgot and take some pills so I can get to sleep. That's about all I have to report.

Not superman

So, I don't have much to say. The only thing I kept thinking about when I was in that car was getting to Israel. Another thing it conclusion I have come to about the case if hemy nueman is that the voices are very belieable. I can't imagine going and buying a gun in order to shoot someone but then I didn't hear what he heard. I've heard what I've heard and it took me about ten days to high tail it out if town like the voices were telling me to do. I followed directions lol. There really wasn't anything else I could do.
I don't believe that they belong where they are. I do believe that they should be shipped to Israel if that's where they wanted to be. We've got a problem in America. Meds aren't available to those with scitzophernia and access to meds are dwendling currently. I'd really like to get out if here and at the same time I don't really want to go unprepared. I've got so much going on. Ive never had anyone bring me pie before. I think Mrs R brought me a casserole once. That was it. I have to go get my own pie as well as pie for everyone else .That can be tiring when your expected to be superman but aren't superman.

The creepy pirates came by...

So, in my hallucinations from January of this year, it was night and the voice was saying get ready the pirates will be here soon, and everything got creepy. They got closer and closer, the ghost of priates, and they began walking in the yard. While off in the distance was a lamp light which seemed to be moving in the nieghbors back yard, and it got closer till it was in my yard. Then there was something or someone outside my car, right at the door. I waited and didn't move. Somehow it got in the car and in the back seat. I tried to ignore it. I forget what transpired next. I think after a couple of minutes it went away. At some point I fell asleep. There are weird noises outside my door right now. I think it's someone working outside. They've been cleaning up the courtyard today. They haven't fixed the firepit yet. But the pirates were creepy.

Very tired. Not much to say. Made a new outfit made the bed, am resting.  Dressed for the day. Someone's an ahole somewhere. Had eggs for breakfast with mayo. It was pretty good. Cats here. She needs vitamins and dewormer I think. Not much else to report. Later crater.

Happy cats

Well, the cats are happily playing outside. I am soon to get dressed for the day. Not much else going on.

Backyard swing

Well I'm all alone now again. I don't like being alone. At least not all day. My cat is here. It's not really the same though. I wish bill or Fred were here. And I'd really like a swing in my backyard.

Update

So I'm back home. I've set up some things, need to wash some clothes and set up my closet. I may be here a while.

yogart for lunch...

well i like hanging out with bill. hes not an asshole. hes awesome. and i like the fact that we have a similar background. i like the fact that hes catholic because there are things there that we have in common, it makes him easy to hang out with in various venues. idk how long well be together but for now this is what im doing. its good for me. in a bit i might go take a nap. ill have to put on my sweatpants and gloves etc cause its cold outside and then too i have my blanket. i can come back here again tomorow if i want after 930. really id rather just give bill the car tomorow and i can hang out at the shelter. id kind of like some lunch in a bit. maybe i can get some yogart. idk. we need gas money. bill wants me to get him a happy meal. do we have enough? 50 motel 20 gas 7 food yestarday 3 baby oil. how much is that? we had 100 from my check. thats 85. plus two this morning for breakfast. i really need my food card. thats about 90 dollars. five for lunch plus two for yogart. yup.. no money left again. thats crappy. i cant really afford this. 119 minus 5 is? 114. ten plus four is fourteen dollars for lunch today for two people. idk well figure it out. well later ~

chapstick

well - i finally got paid today. nothing is open this morning. im at the krogers i might see how much they charge to cash a check since im here. idk what time these lazy people get to work at the service counter lol. maybe i can buy some sex toys at the dollar store idk lol. william wants me to spend forty plus dollars on a room for the day somewhere. idk if i want to do that. what are we going to do with this new guy? lol right now ive got all his things and his id in my back seat. someone should have a chat with him. idk why he doesnt want to contact any of his old contacts. who knows. idk whats going on with that. i have a coupon for mcdonalds buy one get one free. maybe ill get whats his name a burger. i think id like some new chapstick.

fbi...

fbiso, someone got into my car while i was at the library and turned my car lights on to try and drain the battery. i reported it to the fbi.

frosty shoppe...

so i took a walk down to the library this morning and took some pictures of some landmarks. here is a frosty shoppe next to an italian resturant. i met a guy from in town who said his cousins worked there. he told me a few of the landmarks around town.

trama and the italians...

so, im tired as usual. ready to get to bed. i dont think ill eat much for dinner later although im thirsty. weve got two hours before we need to be back. i paid my car insurance and my storage fees and got a new lock for the storeroom. it was three dollars and bigger than the last one. im here at the krogers for now. i went to burger king earlier i like it better. its warmer in there i can broadcast there and they have the news on on the tv. the seats are not as comfy but they work well enough. i took a short rest this morning around 10, ive been through alot of trama these last few weeks, these last six months really. im glad my insurance is up to date. i have some funds left over for gasoline or for some more meds. i really need to get my meds filled again. i met a cute guy this week. we hung out for a couple of days. but so far they havent messaged me back. thats about all thats been going on this week. ill get you an update later in the week maybe, or tomorow. lets try and watch some youtube videos. over and out ~

over and out...

well, all thst left to do now is pay my car insurance and the storeage fee. idk if i can do both. i might get a check this week, idk. that will help with gasoline. netflix charged me. i really need to cancel that. id like to cancel my gym too, that would be 40 extra dollars. over and out ~

lays wavy bacon wrapped jalapeno popper potato chips...

well, we are at the krogers charging the netbook and phone. i actually charged them yestarday but they dont last long. anyway, im listening to music and i had been doing surveys. i didnt qualify for many of them lol. i think theres a dipwad here somewhere, i can hear them. you know i dont really need your help i can take care of my self thank you. ive been doing it since i was born. i'd really like another juice drink. today i had sobe morning patrol strawberry banana. it was pretty good. i think it has stevia in it.
i was tired of the preverbial apple juice and lemoniade. yestarday i bought some applejuice with less sugar in it. it wasnt very good. these people dont seem to understand that i can hear them, lol. shut up.
anyway, what should we talk about now? my music list is not playing. some dipwad messed with it. brb. dont mess with other peoples things. thats why theres a law against that. follow directions. im not real jazzed about training at another facility. its in a shady part of town, im pretty sure i wouldnt fit in there. i really dont think they understand that. thats why i left that catering job, it was scetchy as hell and they just left me there with someone who didnt know what they were doing. honestly we all were just standing there with nothing to do for thirty minutes. i dont do that. im not going to a social event its work. duh. im kind of thirsty. these potato chips are slightly spicey. i dont typically like spicey foods. it really needs some sour cream and another juice drink with lots of sugar in it. my netbook is almost charged. we can then go back to the car. i prefer to be in my car. its more private. i can unwind there. anyway, i think thats it for this blog. over and out ~

kalahari resorts ...

they dont clean the cobwebs from the curtains or underneath the furnature, the parking lot is a mess, they dont wipe down the lobby chairs, and the hotel security team is an ass. also to mention they never have any conventions booked either, their copy machine isnt always working in the business center. the downstairs hotel lobby is unstaffed, they roll the trash out through the hotel lobby doors, the chairs in the rooms are uncomfortable for adults, they have africanized bees in the outdoor waterpark, these were a few things that i noticed, oh and they also turned of the water to the hotel pool bathroom and drinking foutains while i was there. given the experiance that i had with hotel security staff i would say that this place is based upon uncleanliness and rude policies. so, i give it a rating of zero.

nah dah ...

well, alot going on lately. too much to mention. right now i am listening to the sounds of the neighborhood. im tired today but feeling better from this morning. its bright out and im sure its hot outside. i might go out tomorow morning and sit out back for a short while. in the meantime im jsut hanging out and resting. i might get another email about five days. well see. i dont think ill be getting any letters for  a few weeks. no new pictures to post just now. maybe next week. i must tell you though, i was at the clinic in town and there was either a person or a computer program testing something, lol.
i heard it as i walked by. im not sure what it was, but it was familiar.

health..

not feeling well today i hope i feel better tomorow